Today, September 9th, marks my one-year anniversary of moving to Guatemala. What a wild ride it’s been! It’s great to travel, but hard to really know a place until you spend some time living there, going about your daily business. Upon arrival somewhere new, everything is a mystery; everything is difficult and uncomfortable. You don’t know where to buy the things you need, you don’t know how to get from A to B, and you feel self-conscious about it as if everyone can tell that you don’t belong.
But over time, your community and connection to the place builds. In Panajachel I went from being a lost foreigner to discovering its secrets, one by one. Now it feels like home because I know where to buy the best tortillas and I know the hidden hiking trails behind my house — the ones that tourists never use, only farmers. I know exactly how much I should pay for an avocado. I know the most scenic running and biking routes (and the ones that are safe to do alone). I know where to go to drink good coffee and work on my laptop, and I never have to call my friends because I’ll know where to find them on any given night. I can’t walk down Santander without seeing at least several familiar faces.
Guatemala has its quirks, for sure. I’m accustomed to fireworks being set off at any time of day or night, for no particular reason. I’m used to people trying to sell me weird items on the street (pants, toy boats, bonsai trees, homemade medicine) — do people really buy these things?? And I love how easy transportation is. If I want to go somewhere around the lake, all I have to do is flag down the nearest pickup truck and pay them about 50 cents, then bang on the hood when I want to get out. Guatemalans are a very friendly bunch — almost every single person will smile and greet you as you pass on the sidewalks, and they spend a good amount of time simply sitting outside and socializing or observing the world around them.
Working at Mayan Families has greatly contributed to the sense of responsibility and connection I feel towards Lake Atitlan. Through my work, I’ve visited the homes of many locals and gotten to speak with them first-hand about their lives, their dreams, and their needs. They are just regular people who want to create better futures for themselves or their children, and I’ve been touched time and time again by their kindness and generosity.
Guatemala is also a stunningly beautiful country — green and mountainous with deep-rooted indigenous culture. I’ve been lucky enough to explore a lot of it either with friends/family or on the back of a motorcycle. I’ve met many travelers on the fast-track, who spend a couple days at the lake, a couple days in Antigua, Semuc Champey, Tikal, and then move on to Belize or Mexico. But even after a year of living here I haven’t yet seen it all, and probably never will. Just the lake itself holds endless opportunities for exploration, especially the more remote towns.
This brings up the bigger question of traveling and living abroad. The more connections I develop to places, the more places I have to miss. At any given moment, while immensely enjoying my current location, I am acutely aware of all the places I’m not. Sometimes, for no reason whatsoever, I want more than anything to be back in Vermont, with its irreplaceable sense of close-knit community, its two-lane backcountry roads, and locally grown food. Vermont is one of the few places in the world that gives me faith that humanity will be okay despite all of this environmental degradation — that we can actually recognize when industry has progressed enough; that smaller and simpler is better. Other times I find myself yearning to be back in Brazil with its musical language, carefree natives, and all the fresh fruit juice you can drink. Am I losing my Portuguese with all this Spanish-speaking?? Of course I’m always drawn back to Colorado…just about every other day I’ll get an invitation to an outdoor film festival, speaker series, or mountain-top birthday party. And last but not least, San Francisco — I do miss the familiarity of my home and my family; the neighborhoods in which I grew up.
My point is, I’ve been incredibly lucky to live in so many fantastic places, but the price to pay is that I love them ALL, and I can’t be in all of them at once. After a year of living in this incredible country, Guatemala will certainly be added to that list. Whereas one year ago I was just a stranger, going to Panajachel now feels like going home.

















































































